新的开始？

    Hey people,( although I don't know how many of them there will be but) it's my new blog ^^

My new friend, or "old" friend inspired me to restart blogger all over again. ><

    So I've been thinking, should i continue to write my feelings out? Actually I want to but i feel that I shouldn't. It'll be boring to the person reading it anyway xD To start off, I wanna talk about myself i guess since this is a new blog, new post, new email<--- Lol 

   I am a 17 year old boy, now studying in SMK Taman S.E.A. Alot has happened since i was form 1. When i first arrived at this school. I felt that everything was going smoothly, I can just relax and go through my middle school and high school period ^^ But I was kinda wrong, although I still think that "chillax" and "don't worry about it" is kinda my motto but I do have a little bit of stress. I still remember when I was in form 1, I was playing around all day. Getting to know new friends and to have new friends really made me very excited. It was then I sort of felt a bit emo-ish coz at that time, I think that I don't have any real friends in my life before and felt kinda down but yet again I felt that I shouldn't feel this way because my life hasn't started yet. For me, I think that, after i leave school and start college and work is when i really start my life. Since I have not been to college yet, so, my life hasn't started yet =)

    This year, is sort of an important year because I'm having my SPMs this year >< The amount of stress I'm having now its like increasing by the days :O 

    I don't really feel like typing anymore coz i just came back from tuition.. So let me type in chinese? xD

    等了很久吧？你应该会看这里的字吧~ 刚刚从补习回来可是不知到为什么，没有累的感觉。前几天扭到脚至今还很痛呢T^T（应该是我每个星期都有做运动的关系吧, 明明没有痛了但是运动后就痛到不像样了 >< ）今天跟朋友去踢足球，每想到会扭到手指 =.=|| 打字都很痛呢。。原本想要跟你讲我有看那些动漫的但是还是放在另外一个post吧 ^^  

    

    I'll be back with a list of anime XDD

   

Random post x)

      Some time has passed since I last written here isn't it? Well, A lot has happened and i think I'm getting worse at my results.. I can't study unless I have motivation, I know this is bad but I'm trying to get better at it =) At what you ask? Of course, its about studying without motivations. Sometimes I wonder what my motivation is. I always thought that my motivation is from Her. But I think I got kinda stupid thinking about that. Why do people study? To increase our knowledge or just simply to pass the tests? To me though, its like just to please someone. I don't like studying. I'm sure no one likes it too but I have to force myself to study.
   
      Although I still think that she does have an impact on my studies because when I think about it, it always comes to me that "You have to be smart, so that you can take care of her next time." That's what I think but recently I've got a different kind of feeling but I can't explain it. Sorry, I must have made you get your hopes up >< It's really discouraging to talk about this any more so I guess I'll stop here ^^
     
     Is it because I don't have enough courage to talk to her? She told me before, that she only wanted to have a relationship after our SPM or after 17 years old I think. I don't know whether what I'm doing is right or wrong already. It has been on my mind for a long time already that, should I tell her or should I not? I reaaaaallyyyyyy WANT to be her boyfriend. I don't know why but I just feel that way. I should just stick to my original plan and wait until after SPM right? Yeah. I guess I made myself clear right now. I'll propose to her after SPM. That's my plan, hehe. 
    
     I feel lazy today so I guess I'll just stop here XD
     Good bye, thanks for listening to me ^^ 
     You're really a great friend :)

A kinda happy night =)

Wow, I'm feeling so damn emotional tonight ><
First, special thanks to Nithya!
Thank you for advising me to text her!
I wouldn't have done it without you telling me hehe
I'm really happy the moment she replied to my sms ^^
Can you feel it?
My happiness.
Its like over flowing xD
And yet i feel so sad.
So regret.
So sorry.
Sorry Ashley.
I've gone through about all the videos you've made for me just now.
And i found that.
I might still have a little more feelings for you..
Sorryyy =(
It's my fault i guess, not smart enough, not hard working enough to deserve you love.
I think this is what i should get.
I was being so immature.
I know.
I always knew that i was immature, i'm a playboy and i can't really forgive myself.
I can still remember the times, when you stayed up late just to see me.
I'm such a loser.
Well, what's done, is done.
Maybe we're just not meant to be together.
Like i always believed, 勉强没有幸福.
It sorta means, there will be no happiness if you were to force that person to have a relationship with you.
Haha! Maybe I've been A litttleeee bit emo here hehe

人生这一条路,对我来说是一条无境界的道路.
我们可能接触的都是书本,但是我觉得人生不应该只是有书本的世界.
我们应该学会享受如何走这一条路.
我不是一位很厉害读书的人，也不是一个天生的天才，不过，我相信我们应该以随和的态度去看这个世界。

Why does it looks like i've said alot of big proverbs LOL
Haha, Just for your information.
I had a crush on someone and it is still now the same person :)

Reborn Last Cross

Hehe, I don't know should i post it on facebook or not. So at the end.  I decided this. =)
Great song! xD
Reborn OP5 Last Cross [ Full ] - YouTube:


'via Blog this'

So fast another one xD

So, i've seen a few posts and i saw most of them having pictures

So i thought.. Why don't i post some too? hehehehhe

This few pics are quite a long time ago~

We took a few hundred pictures and i really would like to take them all over again!

In some pictures, i just look like a total retard lols

Haha~ But overall. Its fun and enjoying =)

I really enjoyed the moments we get to spend together even though its just one day.

I'm just really happy that we can be together.

Do you think we can still hang out like we did after SPM? :)

I hope so! I really hope so!

<3

Although i don't have much friends.

I still think of all of you as my best friends!!

hehe

Friends <3

Friends? <3

Dense Keanping =3= xD

Haha, I love group photos xD

This is my new friend :D

Tan Sze Li, she's from my perspective, a friendly, open-minded and matured girl xD

Hehehehe

Felt like posting something~

It feels good to hear music while wearing earphones than headphones!! >.<

Haha Those who have not tried it before should do it!!!

Its like you have your own world in there and then everyone outside doesn't know anything!!

Heheheehehehe

So hyper now lolx

Hmmmm I feel like doing something la~

But then don't feel like watching anime coz i'm like listening to songs and it feels SOOOOOO GOOOD! XDDD

Is there anything to do while listening music??

Suggest to me please ^^

Lols Being stupid^

No one's gonna see your post la F3

Well i did say that this is something like my online diary :D

I don't have to feel ashame when i do something here coz no one's gonna comment anyway~ :D

Hmm write an article?

Lol? Article?

Diary you mean? =.=

Okayyyyyy

Today ar was a tiring day TT

I slept through sejarah lol

its reaaaallyyy boring and i cant concentrate ><

Well there's chinese society but then we didn't really do much =/

Mostly also those girls like Yin Yan, Hui Hui, and those form 4 girls there

i just feel like i have to do something for the club coz you see ar

The club is currently being more and more inactive

and by inactive i mean that less people are coming by the day TT

What can I do to save them? XD

Speaking of which, i recently found out that i'm the passive type of person

Lol~~ Do you think so??

I think so lorh -.-

Hmmm i don't think hui hui will like my this type of passive de ><

So..

I have to change!

Become a more possitive type lol

but hard lo..

Coz normally i don't talk to people but if they talk to me, i'll reply

I'm not the kind that starts conversations.

Is this my fault?

I think it is..

Coz i'm constantly relying on other people to continue.

Like i did to Ashley..

I'm sure she tried her best too.

Too entertain me hehe

but most of the reaction i can give is o.o

okay. lol.

wow

yeah

haiz..

Really, should I change my personallity?

I always think that if that person likes me, they should like everything about me

even my bad and good habits.

Is it really like that?

Recently, my way of thinking has also changed.

I think that IF you want that person to like you, you should make an effort to make yourself look presentable.

But yet again.

Is it really like that?

Hmm Now.

I think that people's point of view can be different so just do what you can and do your best in that particular something.

Hehe

There may be people who disagree with me and also people who will be angry.

But like the quote says on facebook.

"What others think of you, is NONE of YOUR business" :)

Be what you want to be, and do what you want to do.

Live your life to the fullest xD

xD

Haha, I feel quite hyper now and feeling like watching emotional and sad anime shows xD

So... I'll go now :D Hehe XDDDDDDDD

=)

Hmm It feels kinda good.

You know?

The kind of feeling to like someone~

I am actually very happy that i know that she may like me

><

Heheee

Feltt boring but feels good today

Coz i get to chat with her =)

Once again :D

I'll be going to read the english oral xD

Today, I felt like typing in chinese. So here goes :D

这应该是我第一次用华文来表达我的心声吧 ><

感到很奇怪le..

最近又没有那么开心了..

可是, 我能找谁哭诉呢?

没有啦,

应该不是哭诉.

大概是讲心事吧 =)

要我戴着这个假面具到几时呢?

很想大声的哭出来 =(

"男人哭吧哭吧哭吧,不是罪"

我觉得那个句子是对的.

可是, 又有谁可以真正的哭出来呢?

当我把我的问题写在这里时，我瞬间的觉得，我的问题其实都不是问题。

都是我自己给自己创造出来的问题。

我真的很傻

难道我真的要在考试后才可以向你表白吗？

我有一种感觉，觉得您不喜欢我了。

希望只是我的错觉。

有什么问题，都是我的问题。

Phewww..

Finally finished.

I think i'll come write another day.

Thanks for listening to me =)

<3

23/2/2012 - A chinese class war :O

Wow, i've never really seen the class being that quiet as today =.=

Everyone was like in a pin-drop silence mode XD

Haha, felt so damn bad weih.. The situation was like daaaammmmnnnn quiet and i just innocently laughed a bit REALLY A BIT! But i still think they can hear me =/

Haizzz

Haw feng wants to go back early coz got tuition, teacher dont let.. But he went for Monday tuition d wut..

I also duno liao la =.=

I think now i write in blogger quite frequently xD

Hehe, think you know me more now? ^^

Hope so..

And one more thing thats very depressing...

Harien's twisted his ankle today during training and tomorrow is the campus run..

He asked me to run for him but theeennn~

I think its matthew la~

He dont let me run =P

Justt kiddinngg~

Maybe Harien's a better runner xD

Kkkaayy, gtg now ^^

See you soon f3