Nothing to do~

I was thinking of writing in Chinese language actually, I really was. Unfortunately I'm using Ubuntu now and the Chinese Pin Yin is a bit haywire :O
Oh yes. Let's update on some of my stuff here. Recently (actually not recently, more like a month ago) I switched from using Windows to using Ubuntu. Ubuntu is actually not bad I would say. Maybe it's because of the graphical user interface that is available in this particular Linux Distro. I'm still a weak programmer, student that cannot only use the command line and I am really quite ashamed of that. After hearing that other kids in another country already started learning IT in a very young age; i just thought to myself, "Why didn't I learnt it when I was younger?" These 19 years was almost a total waste of my time. I only started learning the stuff that I need to know at the age of 18! What a joke.
Anyways, let me share something here that I never really dared to speak out loud to a certain person. I'm always conscious and paying very close attention to what you're saying so sometimes when you joke, I probably will think that it's a serious matter; to me, at least. There is a saying in the Chinese proverb saying "Jiang zhe wu xin, ting zhe you yi". It means that the speaker has no intention whatsoever but the listener takes it to the heart. Sometimes I'm sad; sometimes i'm disappointed; sometimes I feel like the whole world just betrayed me. But because I'm having all those emotions, it makes me realize that nothing it impossible, thinking to myself; "You've experienced something far more worse than that!", "Pull yourself together" is what I've been thinking. I really am a weak person. I live my life thinking and hoping that tomorrow will be a better day.
So let me tell you this, not every day is a bad day. Sometimes I get really excited and I don't know who I can share this excitement to. Especially when it's something about anime and stuff, I want to share to people but I just don't think I can. The only thing i can do is just release my anger, happiness and stress here in this blog. Writing everything out just feels so good. :)

I feel  like I'm getting waaaayyyyy out of topic here.
Okay so I guess that's all for tonight. This is actually a draft from two nights before. I forgot to complete it. Haha.

Good bye.
Do not simply use goodbye. Apparently it's lame. =/