New Year's Resolutions :)

Wow, it's been a year since i wrote here. A lot of stuffs happened this year and I am glad that mostly are happy stuffs :) I should say that the most enjoying and happiest thing that happened is that I was able to have Hui Hui as my girlfriend. I can say that we've never had fights before but I did made her disappointed once. Let me tell you that it's not a very good feeling to feel. Lets see, I gave up alot of things this year, also learned alot of things this year. I received alot of things this year, gave out alot of things this year. What are the things I gave up on? I think it would be having to go to anime festivals and stuffs. Don't be discouraged, it doesn't mean I gave up on anime. I still love anime. Well, I wouldn't be like "Anime's my life, my everything" but rather "Anime is not everything there is in life right?" I learned that I was a very otaku person. I mean, look at my previous post. But is it true that you have to like cars and love to watch football to be a real guy? Everyday, alot of people passed by me and I wondered the same question over and over again. Am i normal?

Why before new year only happened this kind of stuff. Haih. 

I was mostly indulged in playing dota 2 for this year. Yeah.. Too much haha. Oh I made wonderful friends at college and I guess it was a nice thing :) 

In respect to studying and stuffs, I have a feeling I'm finally on the track at being a computer engineer. Although I am still not sure what degree I'm going for but I'll figure it out in the next sem or so. Mostly maybe security or just plain software engineer. 

Hmmm.. Lets start with my new years resolution then hehe. Its 30th December now and 1 more day it'll be a new year. My first and foremost resolution is to be a great boyfriend for Hui Hui. I noticed that I'm a bad boyfriend. I'm slow, inconsiderate, silenced and boring. You know what, I am a really unsure guy. I don't know if this is good or this is bad. I honestly thought that I'm a nice guy you know? But it all came down to how bad i am, how inconsiderate i am, how boring i am. Okay, enough chatter. My resolution is involved in getting me to be a good boyfriend so no matter what happens, don't be discouraged. 

My second resolution is to get really into the IT faction. I have been starting on my HTML and when i knew that hui hui knew more about html than i did it really struck into me. " What have you been learning?". So my other new years resolutions would be to study very hard. Haha. Study doesn't work on me, I should say that research on C, Java, Html stuffs more. 

I guess two is enough for my first year. To be honest, this is my first year having a resolution. I want to be a better man after this two days. I hope I can really make it. If you ever lose your way, come and read what you wrote. haha. I think that's enough. Time to get started on my assignment. Not a second to lose right? hehe. Happy New Year everyone :)

:O

Felt like today just went by so fast..
Didn't do anything lol ><

Oh myyy
Gonna get fat again if I dont start exercising ><

Feel like going for a swim tonight~ I'll go check whether I can swim or not later hehe
Suddenly felt tired and sleepy..
Hahaha feels like I'm giving excuses to myself =X

But I'll do my casual stuff before i sleep :)

I guess that's it for tonight.
Good night, and I'll probably be posting stuffs quite often now. :)

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Omg, Like seriously FML ==
I just feel so damn annoyed and angry at myself now.

Oh please.
Can you just please stop reminding me of the past.
Oh my =.=

I normally write a post like at night but for some particular reason, I just feel very annoyed.
I know that I can't talk to anyone about this.
The only thing I can do now is just write it down.
Or type it down o.o

Calm down.. Calm down..
Let's please not dwell in the past. Live the present and dream the future.
( Wow, another cool line ^^)

So Happy :)

Words cannot describe how I feel right now,
But I'm actually WRITTING. LOL
I'm feeling really really really happy that I'm finally in an official relationship with hui hui :)
Whenever i'm with her, it makes me happy.
She has the ability to make people smile and most importantly make me smile.
Whenever I go out with her, it makes me wonder.
Am I smiling like an Idiot right now?
Am I doing the right and correct things that a boyfriend would do?
Can I make her laugh?
Am I boring her?
These questions always flow to my mind and they'll just be like "HAHA, we'll just swim around in your brain until you get very very nervous or until she gets back!"

But seriously, these thoughts never flow away. Instead, its increasing every time.
I hope I can be your first and last boyfriend.
Although you're not my first girlfriend, I want you to be my last. :)

Sometimes  I wonder. Why do you like her?
I heard a saying once said " You can have a million reasons to hate somebody but to love somebody, you'll only need one" ( I think there's something wrong there >< )
Nevertheless, what I am trying to say here is.
I love you because of who you are, because your personality attracted me. I love everything about you. Your cuteness; Your clumsiness; Your over protectiveness xD; Theight way you randomly say something out;  And also the way you care for me.
Like I said, I love everything there is about you.
I would gladly accept both your imperfections and perfections.

I think I'll feel PRETTY embarrassed if you saw and read this >///<

There you go, a happy post like I said I would post :)
Well, I wouldn't want to re-read the things that I've typed. Because that would make me feel realllyyy stupid ^^
But sometimes, stupidity is not always a bad thing :)

I love you, Hui Hui <3

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Omg. I Feel so frustrated at myself ==
Mistake that I did in the past, I don't think i can undo or delete them.
Fuck me.

I wish I had a time machine now.
I could go back in time and fix all the mistakes I've done.
Hmm about time travelling theory.
Well I DID that mistake and my future-self didn't came to fix that :O
So does it mean that time travelling is not possible for my generation? TT
Maybe it just wants to hide to avoid a paradox..

I'm sorry. I'm not clean and clear. I'm just dirty and blur.
Please don't hate me for that :(

Kinda no mood liao la..
Next time la~ See can write happy stuff or not :)